Friday, September 21, 2012

The calling

I have read and heard from others that if you do something you want or enjoy what you are doing, you never have to work for single day of your life. Hmmm.. sounds reasonable. So what I have to find out now is what I want to do.
As a kid, I have always loved reading and writing. I can’t remember exactly remember at what age I have started on writing a personal diary but it sure was before my teens.

I can vaguely remember what I used as a diary, is it an old school notebook, yellow ruled paper or unused pads of receipts. What I do remember is I have always loved writing my thoughts down. It’s as if I would forgot them as they pass through my mind. It hasn’t always been a day-to-day journal. I usually right on it when I was scolded and feel that I was done injustice. You know how kids are, every little thing that happens against their wishes is an injustice for them. I also write my dreams and aspirations. I remembered one time, I was preparing a layout for my own newspaper. Of course I was the writer of every article, news or opinion column.

When I was in high school, I remembered trying to write a romance “novel” about my infatuation for a boy band that was extremely popular during my teens. I couldn’t imagine what my mother thought about what’s happening to me when she read it. She always reads what I write even if I try to hide them. I am have never been proud of my writing and oftentimes I am not comfortable when others read it. I feel like the reader is looking into my soul through my written words. Because every time I write anything even if it is a business email reply to a user, I always feel that I put a part of my personality in it. A part of my soul.

I always have an opinion of other’s writing style, even of how good the author is, I always have a different twist or ending of the story of my own. Which leads me to wonder.. will I ever be a writer? Or an author of something so beautiful that other’s would say “I like how she writes”.


But I am a great fan of authors who have great imagination and who takes time to do research on the settings of their story, either that or they have lived in that setting for quite some time to remember it quite vividly. That’s why I have great respect for J.K. Rowling on how amazingly good the Harry Potter series is. Truth of the matter is I have never literally read her books, except for ironically, the first and the last one. The others I “heard” the audiobooks or just watched the film version istead but I don’t think that would disqualify me as a fan. Because although I have only read 2 of her books, I can get totally “lost” in her imagination. She makes you really feel that you are there and everything she is saying is real. That I do not need a feel good love or romantic subplot to get my readers hooked.

That is why I am not confident of how I write even if its fictional, I feel that I still could not make the reader “lost” in my story, it’s if the story is their own, as if they are my characters. And when that happens, is when I could say I found my very own "the calling".

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